this is my first attempt at using a blog. im not going to bore you with my life story, not all of it anyway, im basically going to sum it up here:

• i have type 1 bi-polar disorder, and so my moods and emotions are erratic
• i find it hard to trust people
• i always picture the worst case senareo
• ive been cheated on so many times that if a relationship problem arises, thats the first place my mind goes
• my parents had a very messy divorce, and its left me with a lot of issues
• ive lost too many people that were close to me
• i have strong opinions
• i make quick judgements on people and situations, and 90% i am right
• im 21 years old, and have somehow blagged my way through 2 years at uni
• i need real people in my life, not the fake friends that use you

theres more which will probably come out later on, but the main focus of this, the real reason im writing, is my girlfriend. she doesnt know about this blog, and id like to keep it that way. i guess i just need somewhere private i can vent, and while i love her to bits, i really dont understand her. welcome to my life with her