ok, to fill you in on whats happened so far:

she was the girlfriend of a guy i knew, who was a complete dick if you ask me. im not quite sure how it came about, but i got talking to her around christmas time. pretty much from then on she became my forbidden fruit. she was in a long term relationship with a guy who, despite my opinion of him, seemed better then me. so i spent the next few months just ignoring her, pretending she wasnt there. everytime i went on facebook, id look at her profile, subconsiously desperate to find a common interest, something to bring her closer to me. i started noticing a lot of bitchy statuses and used that as my way in.

the conversation, for me, was a train wreck. i wanted to be confident, cool and memorable, but instead i spoke about a shit tv program for about 3 hours. i remember when the conversation finished, i thought i had blown it, but the next few days proved me wrong

we kept talking and she told me about her breakup. her now ex boyfriend dumped her out of the blue, with no real reason. she was completly devestated, and still hasnt moved on, but thats another story

the next few weeks were basically filled with her, she would call me and txt me and we would talk all the time. i think she was using me for support, which i didnt mind. id have her on the phone crying, screaming and desperate, several times i got so worried about her i didnt sleep, just incase she needed me. despite all this, i grew quite attached to her. it had been over 18 months since id had this sort of contact with a girl, and i kinda liked it.